Anxiety

Difficult to tell why I feel this way...this absolutely strong urge to call you. But I know i can't...or at least shouldn't. I'm feeling so depressed this morning.

Had dinner with C&M last night. Maybe that was it. Their conversation regarding the challenge I will have at work seems so daunting. M seems so pessimistic about everything. Maybe I need your strength. I’m so selfish.

I confessed to C during a smoke break that I have been thinking of you. She reassured me that contacting you would the wrong thing. It would hurt you more than it will help. I wish I knew for certain.

I miss us, dede.