@Work

@Work right now and I can't get that song out of my head. It's difficult to be so close to tears while at work. Need to focus. There so much sadness in me right now...I feel like I'm about to lose it. I even booked a trip back home for Christmas.

I keep wondering how life here in NYC would be like with you here...in my life. Oh, Dede, I feel your emptiness and sadness from here. Are we so still very connected? I feel like we are...but it seems that we can't even talk to each other.

I'm so sad, my Dede.